Your lie in April Fanfiction: Symphony of Love - 23. Chapter 23: The Story So Far (I)
Chapter 23: The Story So Far (I)
So I figured that since I’ve been gone for a while I should recap the story so far. I wanted to make it a little more “special”, so to say. Therefore, at some points in the chapter I’ll ask you to play a certain song in the background (on low volume, so you can read properly. Oh, and make sure you listen to the full version of the songs, not the short versions. Change the song only once I tell you what the next one is, until then let it play on loop). I’ll also have different parts of the story as sub-chapters. I hope you’ll find this chapter enjoyable.
Rebirth – (Kousei) Song: 7! – Orange (Your Lie in April – Ed 2)
‘It was snowing that day. I was performing in front of a thousand people, some would say it was a very important moment, and it really was… for a different reason. In that moment, I wasn’t playing for them. I was playing for you. The tears that were running down my cheeks weren’t because of some unknown emotion, but because I finally knew what I truly wanted.’
‘Although I knew the end was near, I didn’t want to lose you. So I followed that glimmer of hope. I left the stage and ran like I’ve never ran before in my life, all because I felt that I’ll find you there. In that instance colors were starting to fade, all I could see was the white snow that covered the entire world. The monotone world surrounding led me to believe I was walking towards certain despair. But when I arrived, two simple words removed the sombre veil that covered my eyes.
Rebirth – (Kaori)
‘I couldn’t feel anything. I couldn’t remember anything. I couldn’t see anything. I couldn’t hear anything. Yet I knew who I was, and why I wanted to return to him. I was stuck in a dark place, an empty void that I’ve never seen before, even in my worst nightmares. The thought of being stuck there terrified me, but amidst the death surrounding me, I felt something. It was a beautiful melody. That boy was asking me to dream again, even after I reached all my dreams, he asked me to dream once more.’
Rebirth – (Kousei)
‘One by one, all of my fears were banished. Not only did she survive, she would live an entire life from now on. The cursed disease that slowly ate away at her was gone. The girl who stole my heart was now finally free.’
‘I realized then how selfish I was, how I should’ve been here for her. Even if she didn’t return my feelings, that didn’t change what I felt for her. More than anything… I wanted see her smile once more.
Rebirth – (Kaori)
‘The piano kept playing, each note pushing me further away from the void. Slowly, the darkness gained color. The brilliant blue of the sky broke through the infinite black sea, and before I knew it I was floating in an endless ocean.’
‘The one who pulled me away from that place was the same boy who asked me to play with him once more. Looking back, I don’t think I would’ve escaped without his help. I still remember his words’
“You already taught me how to escape that place before, remember? Just look up. Look up and… look at me.”
Rebirth – Chapters 1-3
My Special One – (Kousei) Song: Kirameki – Wacci (Your Lie in April – Ed 1)
‘If someone asked me how I felt when I opened that door, I wouldn’t know what to tell them. It was the sort of feeling you get when you know that nothing is wrong in the world, that you could live a single moment forever… that the one in front of you is never going away again. She told me she heard me play, despite being asleep the whole time, she heard me play. It made me happy to know that, even when the world itself stands between us, I can always know that she’s with me.’
‘Once she was gone from the room, curiosity got the better of me. I took the letter that had my name on it, not once considering that she might hate me for it. I knew, as much as I wanted to deny it… I knew that the letter she left for me was in case she couldn’t come back.’
My Special One – (Kaori)
‘What can you say when you know someone loves you, yet you can’t admit your own feelings?’
‘I was truly happy to see him, knowing that he was there for me made me happy. To be honest, as much as I want to, I don’t know how to tell him about my feelings.’
‘In the end there was no need. The letter I left for him was gone, and I knew that he must have been the one who took it.’
My Special One – (Kousei)
‘The more I read, the more everything made sense. The letter she left me slowly opened my eyes. But the most important words were the ones I never expected to hear from her.’
“Arima Kousei. I love you, I love you, I love you.”
‘Those words meant more to me than any others. I don’t think I can compare the happiness I felt back then to anything else. That letter let me know the real Kaori, the girl who faced her inevitable end with a smile, the girl who helped me more than I could’ve asked her to, the girl who didn’t want to have any regrets, the girl who loved me.’
‘I still remember the tears I shed that night.’
My Special One – Chapters 4-5
Our Lies – (Kousei and Kaori) Song: Eine Kleine – Kagerou Project ver.
‘I knew… that once he read the letter I left for him he’ll know the truth. Truth be told, I didn’t know how I felt about it. Each thought that passed through my mind kept me up at night. What if he doesn’t like me that way? What if he’ll hate me for leaving a letter instead of telling him the truth? Will he hate me because I lied to him? Is he going to hate me because I wasn’t brave enough to tell him sooner?
‘I understood why she didn’t tell me. I couldn’t blame her, after all, her lie was selfless. Instead of trying to fulfill her own wish, she helped me with mine. It was selfish of me to spend the whole day thinking about it instead of going to her, now that I remember.
That was one of the longest days of my life. The entire time I spent looking outside the window, waiting for him to come. The longer I waited the more I expected him to hate me.
‘I have to apologize, it wasn’t my intention. I wanted to spend as much time as I could thinking about the whole situation. I never expected Kaori to feel the same way I did, but the truth was that she did. There was nothing else in the way now.’
‘The girl I met back in april, the one who brought color back into my life, the one I fell in love with, the one whose smile I wanted to see again… I promised I’ll never leave her alone again.’
‘Kousei was really clumsy that day. The way he opened the door, the way he gave me his gifts, including Mr. Fuzzy the Teddy Bear… I remember being terrified at the smallest gesture he made, expecting his next words to be “I don’t feel the same way, I’m sorry.” But he didn’t. Instead something that warmed my heart.’
“I promise I won’t leave you alone again, Miyazono Kaori.”
“I promise I’ll always be by your side.”
‘Do you remember, Kaori?’
‘Of course. How could I ever forget? Those days were one dream come true after another.
‘Do you remember what I said next?’
‘Yep. Your words were: “Kaori…”
Kousei & Kaori
“… I love you”
Our Lies – Chapters 6-7
This is the first part of this recap. Hopefully you liked it, I certainly enjoyed writing it and remembering of the time I wrote these chapters months ago. If you have anything you wish to tell me then please do so in the reviews, I read every single one and even reply to them in PMs. I love you, guys. Thank you for reading.